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This past week has been the best week of the whole summer. I had so much fun and actually did things! Why does it have to be over? Why does school have to start tomorrow?? I won't lie, I am kind of excited... We'll see if I can survive this first week. Bed time.

life is good.

First of all....

CHRISTIAN IS HOME!!!! One of my besties for sure! It's so good to have my boys back! Had a very good day spending time with them yesterday. I miss the good 'ol days when we could all get together and swim or hang out so easily. Now we are all separated and it makes things difficult so I definitely value the time I get to spend with them. Also... I learned the hard way with Greg. I don't have a single picture of Greg and I together. Touchy subject. So i've vowed to take more pictures with the people I love.

Speaking of Greg, I told you here I had some special ways of remembering him. Three stories. One, I have a Troll bracelet. I got it for graduation from my parents. It has special beads on it symbolizing things/moments/memories/etc. Well my mom got me a "Greg" bead. If you look closely at the pictures you'll see there are hearts on the inside and then on the outside we got it engraved on and it says:

miss ya Greg

7-23-11

It is kind of small and hard to capture on a camera with a glare but I tried real hard. I love it so much. It's like having a piece of Greg with me 24/7. Or at least when I wear the bracelet which has been a lot lately. Sometimes when I have what I call a "greg moment" I catch myself reaching for the bead and holding it. 

Secondly, gerber daisies are my all-time favorite flower. My junior year Greg drew me a pencil sketch of a gerber daisy. It was just on a small square with some scratch matte around it. It has just been in my room back home. The day that Greg passed away Me, my mom, and my brother all had the same thought that I needed to get it framed and display the picture. It is now hung up in my apartment and will remain hung in my future home. Gerber daisies now have a whole different meaning to me. 

And lastly.. Everything I have of Greg summed into one. I made a little scrapbook-ish thing of all of my letters, christmas cards, pictures, texts in my phone, newspaper articles, etc from Greg. While going through all of my letters from missionaries it was an easy win from Greg with the most letters. Sad that it took him passing away for me to realize that and the fact that he told me he loved me at the end of every single letter I got.  I figure having everything in one place will be the safest place for all of his things. So grateful for all that I have to cherish his memory forever. Love you Greggor!

Also, the Hunger Games series is amazing. Yes I am slow and behind the times. I am almost done with book 2. I've got to finish them before school starts or else I never will. Thankfully it is such and easy read compared to my Thomas S. Monson Biography. I can't put it down usually which is bad since I start reading at like midnight. 

School starts in 2 weeks! Can't wait! I have never been this excited for school ha ha I guess I am just sick of working so much. My school schedule is not pretty that is for sure. But i'm ready to kick this semester's butt. 

And most of all......I am happy! :)

I am blessed

Although the past 2 weeks have been really hard I have been able to realize some important things

I have a Heavenly Father that loves me.
I have an amazing family that does anything and everything for me.
I have a best friend named Lindsay who sure knows how to cheer this girl up.
I have new friends that walked into my life when everyone else walked out.
I have a great job.
I have great friends at work who are willing to help me out when I really need it.
I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for ME.

hard.

Tonight may have easily been one of the hardest nights of my entire life. So much pain and sorrow. So many tears. But tonight I received something I needed. Closure. I was quiet tonight. Real quiet. I didn't talk to anyone. I didn't have anything to say. Pretty sure everyone knew not to talk to me either once they saw my face. The tears started about 5 minutes after I got into the mortuary. Sometimes it was hysterics. Other times it was more calm. Fortunately I had lots of shoulders to lean on. Parker. Todd. Spencer. Marques. Zach. They were all so good to me. Tonight made things a lot more real. Seeing a dead, discolored body that barely resembles someone that you love and used to be one of your best friends is a quick realization that he is really gone. It's not just a bad idea anymore. It is real. After 4 years of friendship I had never met Greg's parents. I'd heard of them. I knew who they were. My parents know them. We had just never been formally introduced. As you can imagine I was pretty nervous and scared for this introduction. I was scared that they wouldn't understand how close Greg and I were. I thought they just wouldn't know. I was preparing to feel real stupid when they saw how hard I was crying and they didn't even know who I was. Upon arriving at his mother she leaned in for a hug without knowing who I was. I quickly said "I don't think you know who I am. I'm Melanie." I was going to continue to explain that Greg and I were great friends. I didn't have to say another word. She quickly pulled me in closer and cried. hard. She knew exactly who I was. She held me and shared some words with me that I really needed to hear. After having the same experience with his dad, I felt at peace. They knew who I was. They knew how close Greg and I were and how much we loved each other. Unfortunately I feel like they were consoling me more than I was them. But their words gave me strength. Tomorrow will be hard. But after that I can start to mend up this little broken heart of mine. It's ok to remember him. It's ok to miss him. But I have to move on with life. I can't continue to cry off all of my make-up daily. I have some special ways that I will be remembering Greg by. Look forward to my next post. Now off to bed so I can rest before tomorrow. After the funeral I'm catching a flight to meet up with my fam in San Fran. Hopefully the person seated next to me will have tolerance for my uncontrollable tears.

Life is short.
And you never know when someone you love will be gone.
I couldn't be more grateful that I went home for the 4th and got to see one of my best friends for 10 minutes.
I'll sure miss you, Greg.
I can't thank you enough for your friendship.
Since you've been home from the mission things haven't been like they used to be. Texting has been our form of communication.
It's hard to think I was texting you earlier this week.
Our memories are forever.
These next few weeks won't be the most fun.
I don't like to think about it.
Just know I will always remember you.
I probably won't watch the new Batman cause it will remind me of you.
I will forever live by our motto: "WHY SO SERIOUS?!"
I will dedicate my car to you since we have the same one.
I'll re-read your letters from the mission and remember why your letters were my favorite ones to get.
I'll still pride myself in getting the first letter out of all of our friends. They were all jealous.
I'll go to disneyland and ride Pirates of the Caribbean 20 times just for you.
I'll remember our inside jokes like "put it up, put it up"
I'm going to hang the picture you drew me up in my bedroom and look at it often.
I'm still going to try and set our siblings up ;)
I'll look forward to seeing you very shortly.
love you Greg!

Looking Forward

............ to AUGUST!!!!

So many things are happening in August that I am so excited for!

• Friends are getting home from missions!! Christian and Chase I cannot wait to see your faces! Homecomings galore! It's about time!
• SHARON GETS BACK!!!! 
• Other people get back! Including new peeps that i'm excited to have down here so I can expand my friend circle. Nate, Chase and Cameron-that is you.
• Sister becomes a teen (ok not something i'm particularly excited about but something that happens nontheless)
• School starts!! I don't think I have ever been excited for school to start haha but I am ready! 
• More people in Provo aka more dating options
• Target Employee Appreciation month!-- nothing great unfortunately but a nice little discount on target brand items
• One month closer to Rascal Flatts!!! Check that off my bucket list!

Well thats all for now. But thats what i'm looking forward to right now. Too bad it isn't like a trip to New York or something but I guess that will have to wait til Thanksgiving... Right mom and dad?!? ;)

**Sidenote: Jimmer's dad and sister came into Target today and I spied on them the whole time. Helped them find Mylicon Drops for baby Tyler. I was freaking out. 

why me.........

So tonight i went to go enjoy myself some wizardry and witchcraft.

First of all it took a lot of effort to get there. Between wrong show times and 3d vs. 2d and people wanting to go see transformers 3, convincing harry upon these peeps was difficult stuff.

Then about an hour and a half into the movie an obnoxious buzzing noise starts going off and we are told that an emergency has taken place and we must evacuate. Come to find out there was a threat to blow up the building. Awesome. So we stayed and waited it out while all of the cops and firemen did their thing cause they said they might restart them... well then it turned 12:45 and we decided there was no chance. So now I have to go watch the whole first half again and still have NO IDEA what is going to happen!! (no, i didn't read the books, so don't spill the beans!) At least i got a discount for being a student AND didn't pay for the 3D version.

I literally am left at a cliffhanger right now. It's not even funny! I have so many unanswered questions and I  am just living in suspense... I guess i better go monday morning so i can finish it!


Better luck next time.